Thursday, April 07, 2005 Everything will be alrightthose pills they've taken. happy inside. Everything will be alright. the cuts they've slashed deep to the bone Everything will be alright frames devuldge from vulumptuous smiles snapping figures sprint Everything will be alright. emptiness is a feeling that fills the void Everything will be alright. When brights turn off, and the light sparks. Everything will be alright. Everything will be alright. Teal @ 7:35 PM Wednesday, April 14, 2004 Careless storm,Careless breathing. Horridly magnificent raindrops, mixed, solely with my blood, tears. Careless storm, white noise, they call it, never ending. Don't shoot 'till you see the whites of their eyes, I say shut the noise, Soothe me with the chaos. Contredanse, Oh, sharp untuned blade, sustained. Stab me with your subtle caress, You careless storm. fractured plastic, indenting, Unknown contredanse. And with your careless storm, Careless pictures, hang. painfully cleaned, untouched by hands. They cannot sense your, stretched hollow. Careless storm, throwing tacks at my fingers, You abhor the drowned dead. So ignorant of thoughts, Careless storm. Teal @ 4:15 PM Sunday, April 11, 2004 Opento the shudder of an incadecent bulb smashing onto the floor A ladder thin wirey, towers, with a timidly dangerous angle swing, pressing your cheek to the bone Rose colored pale. Door knob turns brassy stain wind dancing the door is open. The door is open and you bleed. Drip. Drip. down your throat. Shattered glass drip. drip. Slow the door. Shut the wind. Bandage the light Screw in the blood. but still, a haunting Drip. Drip. Teal @ 5:59 PM Wednesday, April 07, 2004 Why can't i complyWhy can't i give in Why do i hide from these flies of self hate and fear Why would life create such a failure of a person Wouldn't it learn from all the fuck ups that came before I just can't handle myself I can't feel the knife I can't stop myself Plunge into my strife Stop me now Someone save this pathetic corpse Stop me now And pick up my missing parts Save me now And feel the sharp twang of remorse You can just reach into my core pull out the shredded light pull out my deranged plight and fight for my life Why can't you just give in Nothing to save Why can't you just laugh shave that facade right off your face Why can't you just cry pity me live for me My first attempts at song writing lol Teal @ 11:27 PM Sunday, March 28, 2004 The pale moonrunning across my back frozen Tap water gushing face blank reflected from the once gritty plate The house shivers i feel the cold erupt into my body can't move never clean refusing to die standing alone this house I can feel its irking breath upon my neck clutching me can't breath lungs shattered rubbing the stain The water steams burning my gloved hands pinching my wrists punched in the stomach my glazed stare unmoving i can't see the empty house the empty world all i can see the reflection the reflection. Teal @ 2:16 PM Tuesday, January 13, 2004 Caroline wrote this i love itFear of Failing on my own No one to help me along I have to do it all alone again This time i'll change This'll be different I want to do it on my own again I don't want your help Stop lending me your fucking brain I have to think Leave me alone, I am on my own Teal @ 5:23 PM The trains rocks the passengers Like the child that was never hugged. Moving into the abyss of reality Tears streaming down her face Watching the strangers move along Their lives Unknowing to their fetal stab They can’t see the flying children Floating over their heads Laughing, They are. Laughing like the dying hyena. Lets all hope That this train derails Watching the children paint the sky with their tears. From laughter Rushing through The spilling water Slowly moving our heads to watch the world. Why can’t we all derail. Wouldn’t everyone be happy then I would. The children would cry. No reason to laugh When there is no one left. No more sunsets No more trains Just us. Laughing, We are. Laughing like those children Laughing at the unborn egg. Put away that round trip This train derails When it finally sees A small toddler Staring in the distance. The mother A deer in headlights. The toddler, Plays with its toy train. Te stars are sparkling Sun is bright Mother is crying in the distant But all it can hear is the laughing. The Train is leaving, Now boarding happy people. -Written on the train to the therapists....i was in a huge fight with my mom and crying the whole time. Teal @ 5:22 PM Sunday, October 19, 2003 Happy PillsMy fear, my uncontrolably fear. It cries out to me as i reach for the door. My fingers can't find a soothing note I've been shreaded my nerves are a tiger not fed for a week, feasting on my heart ripping out the hope and leaving the stench of fear If you hear me at night with my screams torching the quiet night air the crickets i have murdered with this horrible fear I can't take those happy pills, i dont deserve to have that fakeness that privledge. Just let me suffer, devour myself. I don't succumb to the craving that pulled me in night after night sipping my trembled water with a note of aplomb i strive to survive, i don't want to die yet i kill myself constantly. I need those happy pills. but I can't have them. My suffering is my refugee. I want a home with my happy pills. But if i take them. I'll live in my dreams. Become addicted to yet another thing. Teal @ 9:09 PM open your eyes, and replinish your life your out of control and i can't stop you running My eyes dried with tears i understand you fears i soak up your pain Let me be your sponge. Its like watching a mirror, i can tell your next step i'm like your tear thats always running down your cheek. Believe me i know, i'm just as confused i'm trying to be honest I try not to steal from others happiness and i feel you're the same all i want to do is help. your not alone, i'm right here you can't always tell but i'm crying underneath i want you to be happy i want you not to care everyone should love you your not all alone i'm just as fucked up don't run from me you see i might act differently but i'm completly out of control I can't see the blinding lights of reality all i can see is your pain i want to solve your problems i want you to be happy if you let me, i wont hide from you actually i will, but i might leave a trail of hints if you pick up on them we can be best of friends and no longer will we just be addiction buddys but true friends. Teal @ 8:51 PM |
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